Saturday, July 17, 2010
@ 1:37 AM
FINALLY CAN UPLOAD PHOTO. But only one -.- phail.
But the photo is niceeeeeee. Right? Took it during carnie's 15th. LOVE THIS PICTURE :)
Was in a pretty bad mood today due to some reasons/problems.
Didn't go SPCA with Jing/Teng in the end, Jiaying bailed out on me on shopping -.- but met Ruiqi and co. at tampines stadium. Sorry I was late, heh :p
Going out with them really made me happier (Y) So went sauna-ing with rq, Vivian, LeeBoon, Jiahui and V's brother, ahbao.
Damn shiok I tell you. After that had some special drink(tasted like champagne), slacked, took pictures then bathed. Almost thought I lost my phone, phew.
Derwin was waiting for us for almost an hour(opps), rq went home then the rest of us headed out for dinner at macs. Damn funny, go drink his saliva, Vivian drinking hafway made her laugh, epic. Played with food and talked about a guy named Justin.
Slacked till around 10pm+ then Lb went off, omg, so cute kay, leeboon love derwin :D
Kept ahbao entertained so he wouldn't be mischevious.
Wanted to slack with Derwin until 11 but we both thought it was weird so he sent Vivian and Jh home instead, came home, then got one girl hitting on my bro, Hx jealous, haha cute luh.
And currently I'm thinking if I should attend Sumrah's rehearsal tomorrow :/
STUDY ARIEL STUDY!
A pretend smile hurts.
Sudden realization that I've been away from the clique this whole week, even my blog posts haven't been mentioning them a lot. Suddenly miss them too. I miss the old clique. Before all the problems started. The innocent days. Gosh, I really do.
Yb, I knew I was a last resort for you all along, but it still hurts.
Dd, I thought I was special, guess I'm not.
Qte, Sorry. I'm sorry I lost you. Cause you meant so much.
You. Happy one year anniversary. I doubt you remember anyway. I came from thinking you were the best around, before it all turned to bitterness, hatred and just a pile of mess. I wanted to confront you many times, and ended up losing my courage every single time. I don't know if you remember, but I do, even though I act like I don't remember at all. I remember every moment of it, cause it hurt me so bad. Now we're okay, but it's never gonna be the same. It still hurts every time I see you, cause I get reminded of it. Maybe I'm never gonna get the courage to ever confront you, but I just want to thank you for your concern. You were the last person I ever expected to notice. As I said, we're okay now, but a part of me still hates you somehow and I really wanted to know. What if. What if that day never happened. What if I wasn't hurt that bad. What if I didn't go to see you that day. I'll never find out no matter how much I want to. You've made a great impact on my life and I'll probably never forget you. 'I don't want you to grow up a bitter person.' - It still rings in my head every, single, day.
