Wednesday, July 21, 2010
@ 8:31 PM
I lost my virginity today.I lost it to a girl.
LOL, I'm just kidding.
I didn't lose it today.
I lost it yesterday.
Just kidding again.
I'm so retarded.
I don't like being used.
Used as a source of communication, or used to kill your time cause you're bored.
I don't want to be a substitute.
Substitute for someone else.
You use me so much that you probably can't even tell that you're using me.
It hurts. Everything hurts.
Maybe you just don't understand.
I feel like everything is going wrong, controlling my tears while I'm blogging.
I feel insecure. Is it correct to feel this way?
I feel hurt.
All I want is a friend. One that will stay there for me.
That will not use me.
Or let me be their substitute.
I don't even know what to say to express myself.
Sunday, Wednesdays. Isn't it enough?
Gorilla.
Had a nightmare yesterday.
I dreamt that it happened.
I don't know.
Lost.
I feel helpless again when I'm around you.
16th July. Why.
Why cause me so much hurt?
I'm just really sad, okay.
Fuck.
