Thursday, July 22, 2010
@ 8:06 PM
Mdm Sumrah is a nice teacher, I just can't understand maths.
Test was okay I guess, may pass/fail. Idk.
PE somehow was boring. Played badminton with Yimin, Marissa, Huda H., Yonghui, then Captain's ball with Ruhui, Syahirah, Vivian, Denise, Yimin. Ruhui cried, opps :/ Strong lah she :)
Recess somehow, like urgh. Broke down in front of Jiaying, lucky no one else saw, they were in their convos. Conrolled myself to stop crying. Must have scared her like mad. I haven't cried in front of her since Choir SYF. Super sad lah syf ):
Omg, IS was hilarious. Laugh super loud, then like the POA cher keep staring at Nizam and me. Opps. Bush/Discharge/Shaft, etcetc. Laugh until like mad. Lucky managed to finish msnd.
Then Ms Goh wanted to call my parents for chem cause I never do her work opps. Gave her brother's number, tyvm! :) Boonhoe and D emo-ing in Chem, so gross EEKS. Bh showed me a pic of a girl slitting. i was shocked he didn't ask her to stop. I mean, every girl who cuts herself just wants someone to tell them to stop. To care enough to help them. In fact Bh said it was cool. WTF. I would help her if I could.
Lit was fruitful I guess, Kept laughing with Nizam about the stuff earlier. Did grp work with Sijing, Carnie, Jaslene, then Isaac and Malorie. Hate Bottom ):
Supposed to go Deten but Kengyang alr went ): Shall avoid OKM, next tue then serve.
Our eyes met. I looked away quickly. I saw it in your eyes. You're not sorry. Not one bit at all.
Home alone, WTFF, cried on a bus then got one hot guy sit beside me. WTFFFF. Saw Jared.
It's so easy to wreck my efforts for one whole month in a matter of days isn't it?
Sometimes, I just wish someone would stop hurting me, so I can stop hurting myself.
I feel insecure and alone.
A total loser.
I really tried to be happy today, I really did.
I lost everyone I ever loved.
I put in everything I had into friendships, and when people leave, I lost everything as well.
I'm so easily replaceable.
Given a lot of thought about it.
I can't find anyone to be there for me anymore.
Life has to go on, even if I have to do it all alone, I'm sad, but then again, so what?
