Sunday, August 29, 2010
Smile and hold on tightly no matter what. @ 10:13 PM
The temptation to blog. I FAILED. Thinking about where I should write down my feelings about problems cause according to my dad, I have no right to write down my feelings, must bottle them up till I'm unhappy then release it by hurting myself. k stupid. I didn't ask anyone to come read my blog right? My fault? Zzzzz whatever.From 6 billion secrets,
I started cutting when I was 11.
When I was 15, my best friend of 8 years stopped talking to me, my parents got a divorce and I was lost.
Then I met a boy who told me I was beautiful in every way, he kissed all of my 93 scars and told me he hoped he would never have another one to kiss. He hasnt.
Went downstairs to look at the moon yesterday around 2am. Sneaked out. No one realised I was missing anyway, no difference. Camera is effed up.
I got A1 for my maths, I'm proud :) From F9 jump to A1, seriously happy. Good grades also don't feel like sharing with my parents, hah. Ironic that I can't communicate with them, can't even inform them of my improvement. Finished my DNT lamp. Yet again, trying to look positive at everything, hopefully things will be okay.
I should be getting off the comp to do my Design journal, read like 200 pages of my lit and do a ton of homework I have not touched.
Hopefully I can stayover at Rq's tomorrow. Gonna bake cookies. Also baking another batch for people from cps, Zames, Jeremy and all :>
And, I'm broke. Kay, off to study -coughscoughs- Bye :)
