Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Day 4, My Sibling. @ 1:08 AM
HI THIS IS MY 100th POST :D
Didn't go Zoo with Dhruv and Jasmine. Would've felt weird, so yeah. Happy 2nd by the way! :)
Sze Chun go Botanical Gardens alone. I will never be as strong like him lor :/
Planned to slack at home the whole day, but Evangeline asked me out.
Met her up and went to walk around Orchard awhile. "If you're hungry you can come to me"
And what ghost slipping nail. Her imagination ah, seriously XD
Joshua came soonafter. OMG Evangeline ah, seriously. "Squish his _____."
Caught the movie "Takers". It was a what the fuck ending. So slacked after that.
Whooo, finally someone says I'm smart -winks- Uh huh, uh huh, -dances-
Time passed soon and yeah, luckily, managed to board the last train home :)
Every boy should trust his girl. Why don't you? Love her enough to trust her.
Crapping with Evangeline on the mrt cause Joshua took Purple line. Took wrong escalator, siasuay!
Yup, so reached home before 1am, stupid dumbie Nizam scare me with his ghost :P
Tomorrow I'm gonna miss SPCA with 3e4, super sad okay! I cannot show off with Denise and Boonhoe that we climbed inside the huge canal :(
And especially the bonding time with e4 and the cute animals at spca. Missing out on so much ):
But yeah, I guess going to Sentosa with AEM people makes up for it a little bit la :)
Also, sorry for the lack of recent photos, lazy transfer. Soon. Ily readers :)
And O'levels 2010 has officially started, to those people taking, goodluck. And if you're reading this now, go bang the wall because you're not studying! Go study now :)
To a good friend of mine,
I feel like slapping you. Really. You're smart, really smart. But you're dumb. You don't know how to use your common sense. Such a waste. Such a pity.
You lost your girl. You let such a wonderful girl go. You broke her heart beyong repair.
Now this? Change please. Change for the better.
You could've achieved so much. Definitely much more than me. If you tried.
You're really a good person, you just mixed with the wrong company. You're just too playful.
People in school is promote. You exact opposite. Got brains don't want use.
Why do this kind of thing? It's not like you can't afford. Playful lor.
Maybe you'll never read this, but I hope you will.
Stop being so childish and stupid. Grow up.
Think before you act. The consequences is so dire.
Stop repeating your mistakes over and over again.
Next year is your O'levels. I wonder if you can change for the better by then.
I scold you, no use, I whack you, no use.
I'm not you. I can't change you.
Only you can do that. I can only stand by and hope you will change.
Do something useful with your life.
Surely you don't like people to judge you as a useless person.
Stop skipping school. Stop going lan. Stop fighting. Stop smoking. Stop doing illegal or bad stuffs.
You're gonna ruin the life your parents gave you.
Don't let them give up on you. Especially your sister.
Have you ever though about them?
You actions affect them.
What about her? Have you thought of how she will feel when she knows?
Don't be selfish. Think of others, and how much they will be hurt by your actions.
I'm gonna miss you. I'm gonna miss you a lot.
Who am I gonna punch now? Who's gonna punch me now?
I hope that when you leave, you'll become a better person.
It's a permenant and hard lesson. But I hope you learn.
I really really hope you will change.
Stop hurting people who love you.
We might not be in the school anymore when you come back, but we'll be a phone call away.
Good luck, my dear friend.
Day 4, my sibling(s).
I have one elder brother, 19. One younger brother, 12.
Let's start with Mr 19. He really caused me a lot of misery -__-
Yes, I know you are reading this, you stalker. You caused me a lot of misery.
It's a long story, but it involves many nights of feeling like fuck and crying myself to sleep LOL.
We've never really had an actual conversation. Pathetic sia ):
Yeah, so I'm extremely jealous of other little girls who had elder brothers to protect them.Like you watch TV shows, always got this damn nice korkor always protect the meimei right?
But as I said, it's a TV show la. I guess that like, he's those kind that places his peers and interest over little lame people like me, cause I was a extremely gay and lame thing when I was a little girl. I guessed maybe he wanted a brother. Or as my dad says, he's jealous of me when I was born(cause parents give more atention to babies). Nehnehnehnehpupu. Sadly it didn't last T.T
But I guess that all these stuff helped me to become a stronger person. So I still have to thank him. He also taught me that nothing will actually really last. Like when we were toddlers, we had some brother-sister time also, example "laoahpek" or "Ah ti tu tor" or "alibaba chickenman" or teaching me to climb the kitchen wall like spider man and esp the lame powerpoint slides we did, LOL.But all that really seems far away now. Life lesson, things don't stay the same always.
But I still love him, even though I forgot how to show it anymore. Maybe it's vice versa too.
Deep in my heaart, I still love him.
My younger brother,
thank you for trusting me.
I wanted you to have something I didn't have.
The feeling of having someone to protect you and be there for you always.
Even though you seldom appreciated my super hard efforts, you make me sad, and many many more, I'm happy that I can be your advisor, your protector.
Like when you liked that pretty chiobu in your class, good taste by the way :D
Or when people bully you, take your money or hit you.
I'm glad you trusted me enough to tell me about it so I can help make it all better.
And yes, it really pisses me off when you don't appreciate my advice or efforts to help you.
Especially when you're rude. Piss me off like shit.
But at the end of the day, what can I do? I love you so much.
Your stupid decisions, the stupid consequences.
Sometimes I wonder if I protect you too much -__-
And you better don't go ponggol sec just because got aircon, I will strangle you to death -.- LOL.
Don't eat so much nonsense, later you become more pui than me I laugh at you :P
Goodluck for your psle results hor, gonna go with you to collect :) On dad's birthday LOL. You better excell or it will be the worst birthday present ever LOL.
And I shall go style your hair into a damn shuai style soon, as promised.
I won't give you centre parting this time. I promise :P
So yeah, it's almost 4am, I haven't bathed and I have AEM from 8am to 6pm tomorrow. Fml. Probably having 1 hour of sleep later and then go TP already. Tired. Must be happy okay?
I found another old photo of my parents. Damn young and chio please.Sijing sayd "Your father still had hair" hahahahahhaha.
Jealousy. Envy. Selfishness. Paranoid. Constant comparisons. Insecurities. All these bother me too much. These flaws. I'm sorry. I'm afraid I'll drag you down. I want you to be happy, even if it's without me. I just feel insecure all the time and I don't want to get in the way of your happiness. I know our promises said forever. But nothing lasts forever. I'm prepared for you to break those promises. I don't mind if I'm hurt, because I want you to be happy.
I'm afraid, afraid that I've let you in too deep into my heart to not get hurt, you your happiness matters more to me. Be happy, don't let anyone bring you down. Remember to defy gravity.
