Friday, November 5, 2010
Feelings don't lie. @ 1:15 AM
I am extremely sad ): I shouldn't be feeling sad. I hate it when I'm down. Fuck ):
This is official. I'm crying. LOL.
Please ignore.
Met up Sijing at ard 1pm, pass things to Teng, went my house, then train to Bugis.
Shop for super long, but bought little stuff(not as if I can fit in them anyway). Sijing's clothes chio :)
Parted at 5pm, went home to prepare for the korean dance concert.
Whoohoo! My hair damn nice :) And I wore a dress :O
The bus brought us to esplanade. I'm trying to be like Sze chun, trying to find the joy in doing stuff alone. I'm not kidding. If I'm alone, I should at least find joy in it :)
The concert was kinda cool/funny, breakdancing was awesome.
Bus-ed back to school, had a nice talk with woman :)
Mac with Nizam, Huda, Syaf. After a while, said bye to Sijing and co. Andrea and co. then went then bus-ed with Jaslene, N and H. Got cute guy! Home right before 12am.
Day 14, someone I've drifted away from.
Wow. A lot of people. A whole lot. Like a lot lot. Hahahahahah fml.
I'm sad now so I can't think straight. Forgive me if I sound like Imma commit suicide any time, LOL.
Hmm. I guess it would be Carnie. And it has nothing to do with recent happenings.
It was pretty long ago, like almost a year? I wrote her a 6paged letter, wonder if she's still keeping it.
Somehow, I never thought that we would drift apart. Maybe I took her for granted.
She has changed a lot, and I guess, so have I.
I still remember all the dumb things we did/said:
Before you die, woot woot, 022bomchikewowwowchikewowwow, Story of carnie and ariel(1,2,3), yaoi LOL, horror movies, oversized peacock pyajamas, sgcafe, stanman, beckie, long neck, porn parts in books, eating super super dirty sweets that dropped on the windowstill/bbt pearls that dropped on table/rice stuck in hair LOL, zy look like benson, how she eats her dumb double cheeseburger(buns>scapes cheese>then patties one by one wtffff. Ending up with cheese in her fingernails Eeeeee!), her bimboness, failure taste in 'hot' guys and OMG, act bimbo in front of my hot brother only! AND BLACKMAN HUG URRRGHGHHH!
Woah, I listed a lot :/ And there are so many more. So many.
I don't even know what's going on in her life nowadays.
Eh bitch! If you're reading this, I tell you arh, better catch up with me soon hor.
Done. It's 2.56am, and I'm still waiting for mou mou ren to call me. Don't think I'm sleeping tonight. Texting Nizam, and thanks Sze Chun, for trying to give me advice. I'm still feeling down. Fuck sial.
Please don't walk away and please tell me you'll stay.
