Monday, November 1, 2010
Or am I a fool, who sits alone, talking to the moon? @ 10:17 PM
The picture above soooo nice :> I love photography.
Hi stalkers. I am extremely down now. Like, really. I hate feeling "emo" even though that's how I probably feel most of the time anyway. Firetruck.
Skipped first day of bridging omg. Couldn't wake up, first time. Didn't want to go for choir also so just slept. Sumrah called my parents -.-
Brought my lil' bro out for sushi, told him I would treat him after his PSLE, Wlao, sister like me whr to find LOL. Then rushed home, took swimming gear and rushed to Tampines.
Swam with Ruiqi for a while and saw Calvin, Bryce and Khairul thr omggggg. Spat water on me -.-
They damn bastard I swear. Played the kiddy slides and stuff, awesome (Y)
Almost lost yb and me friendship band, fuck, panic sia. Found it in the end<3
At 7pm+ bathed and stuff then went to eat a little, Wlao, the auntie damn fake, say her food nice in the end like -_____- Chatted about random stuff. WTF Rq attached. Reached home around 9pm.
Gotta bathe then sleep early so I can wake up for bridging tomorrow. Sijing! I'm super guilty now :/
There's no point staying together if we all just find it a burden. No matter how much I want us to stay together, it's not enough. Our hearts are not in it anymore. We've slowly left, one by one. It's better to make a clean break harsh and quick rather than slowly see us break up. If it doesn't hurt you, then sorry, it hurts me. I never had friendships like this before. I just don't want us to fall apart. It just kind of sucks. I can't even remember the last time we went out. When we last spent time together. It just feels like a routine, a ritual. Deep inside, I guess we all left. Maybe I'm the only one who sees or feels it, and I guess that's why it of hurts a lot to see us slowly disappearing.
You. You never appreciated me. I did everything I could just to see your smile, even if it meant hurting myself. You used me, hurt me and left me. I know this goodbye I'm saying will never mean a thing to you, but it will to me. I'll remember you as the selfish bastard you are.
Day 10, someone I don't talk to as much as you would like to.
I thought about this long ): I realised that there are so many people I don't don't to as much as I really want to. Really a lot. But I guess the top one has gotta be Jordan.
Yeah, Jordan Chow Chee Bye LOLOLOLOL.
Jordan used to be a really best friend of mine, I guess? Like, we always fool around like little kids.
And always eat sweets in class then throw out the window hahaha. Then always vandalize his table like shit, paste salom pass, draw with marker, liquid paper, pencil, haiyo, everything.
SOUR SKITTLES! Pranks Benson with them, then he also prank me -.- Sour fuck please!
Then we always talk about his Angela Zhang, then sing in class, omg so funny. MU NA YI, hahahahah. Say his singing is nice(WTF!!). Then he always talk about Miss Ho's butt -.-
There are so many many more, but I'm not gonna bore you and list them all.
Yeah, then after we splitted classes in sec3, he just stopped talking to me. Even when I talk to him, he don't reply, sometimes got, but mostly never ):
I think it's people *coughs Xinwei* anyhow spread rumours then like, made him feel awkward around me. Wlao, I seriously miss him sia. I never liked him before, I swear. Then like our friendship so fucked now :/ And although he always fools around and stuff, but when you really need someone to listen to your problems, he'll listen sia. Wlan. I miss him seriously a lot.
I realised plenty of my friendships really so easily end. I really try to keep them. I struggle really hard. But I guess people just don't appreciate it. I hate losing friendships, because each and every one of my friends are important, even if I get mad at them sometimes. If you're my friend, and you're reading this now, make an effort to talk to me, wherever, whenever. I don't want to lose anymore friends, and sometimes, it gets really tiring to hold on to a friendship where you put your everything in and get shit in return. Yeah, trust me, I get that a lot.
