Saturday, May 7, 2011
Pick yourself up. @ 10:21 PM
I realised that this post was saved in my draft since 13th december last year. This was written when I was going through a rather hard time. So I don't have to use a lot of time to blog, just type this paragraph, hahah. Okay. Here goes.
Somehow I feel like things have really fallen apart through the years, I have changed so much. Everyone has. We all changed, some for the better, some for the worse. Looking back, I still wonder if it was worth the changes made, if I will regret everything one day or if things will only worsen from now on. Questions just fill my head. Questions with no answers.
Someone once told me something extremely true.
" Change is the only constant."
I guess, when you fall, you have to just pick yourself up and move on. Life goes on no matter what, it will not stop, time cannot stop for anyone. Whether you spend the time happily, or wallowing in self pity, it's up to you. Time still passes.
I know, it's easy to say, but hard to do. But I'll try. Maybe I'll feel alone sometimes, but so what? So what if I'm alone? I still can be happy. So what if I'm not loved? So what if every one judges my according to my appearances? I'm scared of facing the world out there. But I'll try.
It's me against the world. And I'm still looking for a best friend to fight by me. To love me for who I am. To tell me, it's okay to be ugly and fucked up inside.
Till then, I'll keep looking. I might turn back, but I'll keep walking. I might lose hope every once in a while, but I'll stay strong. I'll keep my fighting spirit. And even if I do end up alone, it's okay. At least I tried.
After these *does mental calculation* ... 5 months, I haven't changed my thinking. I've lost hope more often then I shoud have nowadays, but I'll continue to stay strong :) I find the time still passes paragraph. Might as well be happy than sad. Find your
own happiness.