Saturday, August 13, 2011
Who decides? @ 7:12 PM
By now, I think many people already know that I'm not a believer. I don't believe in God.
But I've been thinking. Has it always been my choice to never believe in god? I don't know actually.
I used to think that I never believed in God because I felt that it was too good to be true. No one can ever be so perfect and everything, harbor no hatred towards anyone who has done him wrong and just really love someone else.
I've said it many times, and here it is again. I feel like God is just like Santa Claus, but for adults. It's something that makes you happy even if it's a lie.
For example, when someone dies, a Christian says, he/she has gone to heaven to be with God. She is at peace, yada yada yada. But in fact, this dead person is buried 6 feet underneath the earth, rotting away. Get what I'm trying to say? It's like a white lie that we make to ourselves.
But I realize that I talk to God a lot when I'm on my own. I pray unconsciously, I thank God unconsciously. I interact with God a lot when I'm on my own.
So why do I still not believe in God?
It just dawned on me, that maybe I know that there is a God. Just maybe. But it's just that I have chosen not to believe in him.
Because it'll be so much more right to do so.
I mean, God is a great person, as everyone loves to describe him. He helps those in need, bring joy to everyone.
But look at the world. People are dying of starvation. People are suffering from disasters. People are dying. Even in a society like ours, people get raped daily, people lose their parents in divorces, accidents. They cut, they cry, they just stay in this constant bout of sadness. People care about only themselves.
So let's say if I believe that God exists. All this shit, I'll fucking put all the blame on God. All these sadness. Because he's supposed to help, but he's not.
Hence I think it's so much easier to blame humans instead. Car accident? Blame driver. Fat? Blame self. Cancer? Blame smokers(LOL). People dying of starvation? Blame the rich who don't give a hand. It just seems more right to me this way.
And maybe I do believe in God. Just a little, even if I think it isn't right. The fact is, I don't really know.
But if there is a God, I sure hope he'd help out the world just a bit more so people wouldn't suffer as much. Help people to go the right way in life. That money isn't everything, love is. Looks isn't as important as personality. Selfishness is a sin. Sharing is caring.
Okay wait. The last one was from Sharity elephant one.
But yeah, you get my point? That's all I'm trying to say.
Also if I have Christian friends reading this, I hope you aren't offended. I just can't bring myself to believe in God right now(or ever) because I think he's a bunch of bullshit. Sorry.
Okay. That's all. Just wanted to let my views out. I'm still an Atheist, and I doubt it's changing soon. Goodnight :)
