Sunday, September 25, 2011
I thought. @ 11:59 PM
Hey, so if you didn't know, I have a duplicate.
Plus, because I'm too hot, only me would suit me, so we're together, mwah ;)
Hah, okay, why am I so lame.
Spammed photos in the library the other day with these awesome people :) We are retarded but that's perfectly okay :D
I look like an alien. I fucking swear.
I've been studying really hard, really. I feel so nerdy. My prelim results weren't that good, but according to the stats, I've made a 3 point improvement! This year is the only year my results have actually improved because I really studied. So that's a good thing? Plus my L1B4 is finally below 20! #ProudGirl95
There will be the Post-Prelims Programme in 9 hours time, and I'm really not looking forward to it. There'll be an hour lunch break and another half an hour of random break and I really believe I'm gonna end up alone at those times, which is a horrible feeling truthfully. Imagine people shiok shiok happy happy go lunch outside school together then like you forever alone loitering in the school. Oh well.
Yea, and here are some other overdue photos!
Love this photo so much.
Anyway, here's some words I want to say to you but I cant'. You should know it's you.
Dear you,
I'm sorry I've been such a bitch the past few weeks. Would you believe me if I said I couldn't help it? I doubt so. It's just me. I always have this alarm set up, and I really let it down when we got close. We always waited for each other after classes and we always ended up partners for group activities and all. But now, it's like I'm all alone. I know you're happy with you friends, and I know they're closer to you, but I just thought we had something special too. Maybe it was just me. I don't know.
I know it's hard for you to try to balance your friendships, and I know I should be more understanding, but I just can't. I'm trying. But I just can't be okay if I'm option to you or something. I'm the kind that shuts down when I'm hurt. I can't talk to anyone and I need to be alone. More so I can't be with you alone because I'll just shut down there and then, and everything will turn really awkward.
I'm afraid of talking to you because I'm afraid I'll just give myself some hope that actually you'd be there when I need someone. It'll hurt so much more.
I know I shouldn't expect anything from you because expectations lead to disappointment, but I just can't do it. I'm too lousy.
I guess every friendship does have an expiry date, and maybe we've lost the strong bond we've once shared so well, but I want you to know that you are still important to me, and I'm not blaming you or anything, but I just want to explain to you why I've been such a bitch these days.
You are still important to me.
I love you. Mtywek.
With love, me.
Dear you,
I'm sorry I've been such a bitch the past few weeks. Would you believe me if I said I couldn't help it? I doubt so. It's just me. I always have this alarm set up, and I really let it down when we got close. We always waited for each other after classes and we always ended up partners for group activities and all. But now, it's like I'm all alone. I know you're happy with you friends, and I know they're closer to you, but I just thought we had something special too. Maybe it was just me. I don't know.
I know it's hard for you to try to balance your friendships, and I know I should be more understanding, but I just can't. I'm trying. But I just can't be okay if I'm option to you or something. I'm the kind that shuts down when I'm hurt. I can't talk to anyone and I need to be alone. More so I can't be with you alone because I'll just shut down there and then, and everything will turn really awkward.
I'm afraid of talking to you because I'm afraid I'll just give myself some hope that actually you'd be there when I need someone. It'll hurt so much more.
I know I shouldn't expect anything from you because expectations lead to disappointment, but I just can't do it. I'm too lousy.
I guess every friendship does have an expiry date, and maybe we've lost the strong bond we've once shared so well, but I want you to know that you are still important to me, and I'm not blaming you or anything, but I just want to explain to you why I've been such a bitch these days.
You are still important to me.
I love you. Mtywek.
With love, me.
