Thursday, November 10, 2011
People. @ 3:46 PM
“When someone is crying, of course, the noble thing to do is to comfort them. But if someone is trying to hide their tears, it may also be noble to pretend you do not notice them.”
I have those days. You know, days like this.
Then, i have days when I feel like this.
And probably, everyday, when I feel like I have to be like this.
Look at the gap between her thighs.
Look at the thin arms.
And her flawless tummy.
I've tried telling myself that,
But I feel like I'm just trying to deceive myself. I mean, look. I'm afraid to become the girl on the right. I know it's superficial of me, but I can't help it. Everyone is superficial, not just me.
And most days, I just end up feeling like,
Developing a challenged fear about these objects.
Telling myself it's my fault that people cannot appreciate me.
Yeah, I think I worry too much, hah. People keep telling me I'm not ugly, that I have a beautiful personality. What matters is on the inside. I just can't believe those words from the bottom of my heart and most days, i just end up feeling like I'm not good enough, never will be, and I'm not worth it.
Alright, I've spent really long on this blog post, before I go, I'm just going to post a little about Cassie. Goodbye guys :)
Cassie is so beautiful and she didn't even need to starve. She's already so thin. Sid shouldn't have treated her the way he did. She's beautiful, both inside and out. I love her :)
“Cassie,
I’m shit with words everything always comes out so crap. But I’ve been doing some thinking and everything is getting clearer.
The thing is Cass, I’ve woken up this morning and the sun’s shining through the window and it’s making me think of you.
Cassie, it’s not right, you hiding away in that clinic. You’ve got to get out in the world.
Cassie, I don’t care if you think you’re odd, because I feel like singing when I see you, and you’re beautiful, and I’ve been such a fuckin’ chapstick these past few weeks, and all I want to do this morning is sit on top of Brandon hill and hold you and tell you how wonderful you are,
and I love you.
Sid x”
I’m shit with words everything always comes out so crap. But I’ve been doing some thinking and everything is getting clearer.
The thing is Cass, I’ve woken up this morning and the sun’s shining through the window and it’s making me think of you.
Cassie, it’s not right, you hiding away in that clinic. You’ve got to get out in the world.
Cassie, I don’t care if you think you’re odd, because I feel like singing when I see you, and you’re beautiful, and I’ve been such a fuckin’ chapstick these past few weeks, and all I want to do this morning is sit on top of Brandon hill and hold you and tell you how wonderful you are,
and I love you.
Sid x”
