Monday, June 18, 2012
Evolution. @ 11:18 PM
Short post. I was heading home today around 10pm, and I bought sushi worth $2, (despite already being a fatass), and I saw this blind lady selling tissue papers. If you know me well enough, you'd know most of the time, when I see people selling tissue papers, I will buy from them. Even if my mother nags the shit out of me. Which seldom happens since we rarely go out together. I know that with $2, I can go to guardian and get like 10 over packets of tissues, but I choose to buy from them.
Since I usually buy from them, I know that $1 can get me at least 3 packets of tissues, and even though I had a dollar coin in my wallet, I passed the lady $2, took the 3 packets of tissues and left. I remember her once, she was at Tampines area and I told her to go home soon and not be out too late. I wanted to say that this time too but I was afraid she'd recognize me ._.
So anyway, my point is, that when I spend $2 on myself, I feel that I should also spend the equal amount on someone else that needs it. Even though $2 isn't a lot of money, I'm just using it as a point. Because maybe people, (ahem, like my mom), feels like we should always have the best deal. Like, why buy from here when you can get it somewhere else that's convenient and much cheaper.
To her, money and herself is the point. For me, it's not. It's more of the act and how all of us are as human being, not just myself alone. These people on the streets, they actually pass by us everyday, they are the same people as us. But have we stopped to notice them? To pay attention to them and not feel like we are superior to them? Not even turning their way? By the way, some buskers out there actually make really lovely music. Honest.
By the way, when I pay for tissues or buskers for good music, I am either sympathizing with them or appreciating their music. I will never pity them. Pity is one of the worst things you can give someone. Sympathy is a different thing. I hate people who use, "give them money", I always say "pay" because it is a deal, I get tissues or good music in return, I pay them. When people use give, it really irks me badly.
So back to the point. I mean, I'm probably not going to change the world much, like end poverty in Africa and all those really big things, but I hope to do little things that matter to people. Just to make them believe humanity exists or whatever. Like Sijing, when she gets change in coins, she throws the money up in the air and just lets it roll away for someone else to find. Wouldn't you be happy to find a dollar on the ground? Then you start tweeting, 'Wahlao, so lucky, found money on the floor!'. Hahahhahaha. It makes people happy, and it makes me happy to make people happy. Money isn't all that important, and people just have to realise that someday. It's more important to care for the people around us, whether we know them well or not.
Most people in this society that I know, especially in Singapore, are afraid to lose out, or as slang, we say "kiasu". But then, why must there always be someone who wins and loses? Winning well and losing badly. Why can't all of us just win a little? At least none of us lose, and everyone benefits, right? We should all be a little more 'whatever' and just easily accept and let go. Life's happier that way.
That's all. If you've read the whole thing, sorry for my ridiculous analogy, bad examples and really disorganized thoughts. I think this will only make sense to me. But that's alright because it's enough :)
